When I first found Second Life, it was the beginning of 2006 and I’m sure I had no desire to showcase any elements of the real life me. It was anonymous, there were no voice capabilities, and I wanted to experience being something or someone other than what I was in real life. I certainly did that, but over the years, the lines began to blur and more of the real me surfaced. Now I find that I’m much less closed about who I really am and I realize that Alianna Logan is very much me, just as much as Tam (my real life name shortened) is. I’m no longer roleplaying, Ali simply is the body I wear to walk around in a fascinating virtual world, and to express myself with.
I stumbled into Gor not long after finding Second Life and it was something that was completely new to me, so foreign was the concept. But I found myself utterly fascinated by the world that Gor fans had created inside of Second Life. At the time, it was vibrant, and it gave me something to focus my attention on. For a year, I put my heart and soul into Gor and I learned so much about myself that I truly hadn’t known before I’d found Gor.
Though I left the Gorean community, I still have such fond memories of my time in it and even moreso for the people who touched my life while I was a Gorean kajira, then Free Woman and proud Physician. Once Gorean perhaps it never completely leaves the system as I do miss it at times.
When I left Gor, I also left SL for about six months. It was an emotional time and I needed to be away and get my priorities straight where real life was concerned. Once I returned, I again stumbled into something that I had previously not had much interest or involvement in, and that was the fashion industry. I joined a modeling school, InStyle, and proceeded to get hooked on runway modeling. It was hard for me though because I don’t have that special “it” factor that is needed on the runway to truly shine. And that was evident by the fact that I did not receive the endless invitations to join this or that which I saw others around me receiving. The very first fashion show I did I believe was for Freda’s graduating from InStyle. I was very short and quite obviously still didn’t know what I was doing! But it was quite the rush!
I went on from there to win Top 5 in the very first Face of photoLIFE contest, and let me tell you, the only reason I got to Top 5 is because it was supremely easy back then. So much easier than the competitions are now. I’d show you those photos I won with, but….I can’t find them….yeah, I can’t find them!
I happened to meet Fortunate Szondi at a fashion show and that’s how I began to walk well before I was even ready. She believed in me and pushed me on out there, putting me in a few shows with some of the best models in SL at that time.
I was blonde a lot back then I’ve noticed, and I’m not quite sure why! I think I thought I needed to change my hair to something extreme when I was on the runway.
It really didn’t take long for me to realize that I would be better suited to work off the runway. I still loved the fashion industry so much, but I wanted to work behind scenes helping others to shine. And that’s what I did when I made my way to Opium Fashion Agency. I became the General Manager there helping out OomPoppaMowMow Snookums and Mallory Luke, before they eventually promoted me to CEO. One of the first productions I worked on was the Face of photoLIFE 2009 that Kate Stockholm won. It was tons of fun.
The show we put on for Smooth Designs. It was extremely laggy, but Synthia managed to capture some nice parts of the show.
Below was my first attempt at doing voice work and directing a commercial. It was a fun day. The dark-haired model there isn’t me, but an OFA Model at the time, Ornella Alter.
My favorite production, The Subway. At that time, I had Jill, Dream, Elinor, and the models helping me put the shows together and it was great symmetry. Mallory was always right there footing the bills so that we could do our best. When you have a team that works well together, there’s nothing like it.
The models I worked with back then were so wonderful and I’ll always remember those times as some of my absolute best in SL.
Leaving OFA was also a huge turning point in my SL. Very emotional and very necessary. I had given so much to it that my real life was once again suffering. I took another break from SL after that. One would think I’d stay away but it’s a difficult thing to do, SL is compelling and I seem to always come back. At the urging of Mallory Luke, I began working as a Managing Editor for Scruplz Magazine and that began another year of my life working extremely hard only to realize that I had neglected my real life so severely once again and all for something that in the biggest scheme of things was not as important as I had thought it was.
I had some good times at Scruplz before things went awry, but I have a hard time remembering those good times as the bad overshadows. It’s unfortunate when that happens! I gave my all to it though and I did the best I could to being Managing Editor, then Editor in Chief, then Partner before needing very much to resign. It was a challenging and very interesting year in which I learned so much about the publishing industry in SL, and so much more about myself (some of it good and some of it not so good). I learned that I am controlling to a fault and that as much as I had believed myself to be a team player all these years…I’m really not. Disheartening news, but good to know it. Only in knowing your faults, can you even begin to change.
I greedily have it all on a personal level in that I’m happily married (after some trying times) to a wonderful man in real life, and I’m also happily married in Second Life to my female submissive, flame Logan. I’m blessed to have another submissive who is extremely dear to both my wife and me, Blaysus Blackheart. There is no doubt that I’ll start a new project of my own in SL at some point, but for now I am enjoying myself and loving SL again because it isn’t ruling my life. It’s so important to keep the proper perspective so that our virtual lives don’t completely take over.